This blog is not just for learning but for sharing and just like everyone else I have days where I am struggling and I feel like I don't know what is going on. Today has been one of those days. I woke up normal day, but such a moody atmosphere within me and around me. I don't know why, I've felt like I have been struggling so much, not being able to pray, not spending time with God, not being able to do what i think i should be doing in order to be saved and be loved by God.
So i did myself a hot drink. grabbed my bible and sat in bed and started to read Proverbs. I felt like a failure, felt like I failed God, that I disappointed him, that I wasn't living the way I should be, that I have so much to fit in not only with God but my normal day to day, looking after my family, not praying enough, not cleaning the house enough, not seeing my friends enough, not talking to others enough. I just didn't feel ENOUGH. Then as I started to ready Gods word he started speaking to me so loudly. God is not something we just fit in it is the way we live for him.
GOD LOVES ME....NO CONDITION.....NO JUDGEMENT....REGARDLESS OF WHAT I THINK HE WILL ALWAYS LOVE ME.
I AM SAVED BY THE GRACE OF GOD, BECAUSE JESUS DIED ON THE CROSS NOT BECAUSE OF MY OWN WORKS BUT BECAUSE HE DEFEATED DEATH ONCE AND FOR ALL!!!
Each day is a new day....when we look and put our focus on God there is no need for us to focus on the struggle of what we are going through. The key is to READ THE WORD of God, to worship and sing there is something about singing to the Lord that it cleans out the atmosphere. I have learned that in my struggles the more I worship the more I feel lifted. I've also noticed that the days where I don't feel like worshiping or reading the word or spending time with God is the time where I need to do it the most. The reason that is because God is drawing us closer and wants us to go to him regardless of how we feel, because he doesn't leave us. He is always there he is constant. Putting my trust in God and knowing and learning that he LOVES me for me is something I am journeying myself and it is so beautiful because I have had to relearn what this means.
Just know that if you have a day that you feel like you are struggling be bold, be courageous and continue to delve into the word of God and worship with him. Rest in his presence....take every step of your day and declare to yourself I am in the presence of God and believe it by faith!
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